I don't expect anything in return, because somehow... I know however hard I bend over backwards and wished for it, I'll just never get it.

It's such an OVERSTATEMENT, in a way... for you to say you know me so well, when you can't even start to understand why I do things the way I bloody do!

But I just cannot explained to you, how meaningless my life is... so much so YOUR STUPIDS THREATS don't really bother me that much. In fact, I think I'd be happier and probably dead maybe, if you ACTUALLY carried out your threats.

I've been holding back so much, so when I finally got the guts take that free fall plunge into oblivion... it will be just me, on my own breaking my own neck with no one else to drag along with me.

I let myself be physically, mentally and emotionally abused without caring by whom or why.

I feel ugly. I look ugly. I am ugly. My esteem's just keep going downhill and I'm forcing myself to feel alright, to look alright, TO BE ALRIGHT for the sake of everyone else!

She knew all along that curiosity kills the cat. But sadly, the cat didn't die. She did, many times over.

I guess people just don't see how hard it is for me, to pretend nothing ever happen when there's a million diseased thoughts in my head, trying to force themselves out of my mouth that refused to open up and speak.

If my existence annoy you like hell, then why can't the hell you leave me alone?!

No more trying, for you. For anyone. Accept me for this emoshit I've become or get lost. I'm not changing myself for anyone, anymore.