I want to go home i want to get far away from this place

Out Of Order.

When you see me smile, know something's wrong.
When you see me cry, know I'm breaking down.
When you find me dead, know I gave up too fast.

Maybe you should forget about me.
The way that Im trying to forget about you.
Im sure it will be easier for you, than it is for me.
You have a life to get back to, I just have a dark hole.

Went a tad crazy with the kitchen steak knives tonight.

Oops.

I understand that when people look at me they dont see a bundle of joy, But they dont see a girl who has lost it all and has ruler length gashes up here arm either.

When will i ever sleep again?
when will i smile?
when will some one hold me?
when will i no longer live alone on this forsaken earth?

Look into my eyes and tell me what do you see.
Do I look happy?
Do I look sad?
Can you even tell the difference
No you cant

Well I'm sad but you'll never figure out why

Nothing matters anymore. I just don't care.

Dad; well dont be depressed.
girl; i'll try.

thoughts; WHAT THE HELL ITS NOT SOMETHING I CAN CHOOSE!?