Went a tad crazy with the kitchen steak knives tonight.

Oops.

I understand that when people look at me they dont see a bundle of joy, But they dont see a girl who has lost it all and has ruler length gashes up here arm either.

When will i ever sleep again?
when will i smile?
when will some one hold me?
when will i no longer live alone on this forsaken earth?

Look into my eyes and tell me what do you see.
Do I look happy?
Do I look sad?
Can you even tell the difference
No you cant

Well I'm sad but you'll never figure out why

Nothing matters anymore. I just don't care.

Dad; well dont be depressed.
girl; i'll try.

thoughts; WHAT THE HELL ITS NOT SOMETHING I CAN CHOOSE!?

These tears, they fall like rain, from these eyes of mine. Your name it falls like lyrics, from these lips of mine.

Do you even see me anymore? Or am I just a pretty decoration for your house now?

I waited & waited... i feel like i no longer be the girl who waits for you anymore when your not even coming back. :(

With my tears, comes even more fear.