Why?... My unanswered question...

"I'll take a quiet life, A handshake, some carbon monoxide." -Waterworks

I think I know why now...

No, I'm not okay....I'm utterly sick of myself...

Ive never seen so my effing blood in my life...

I'm just going to hold my head up high...

Ya know what f**k this...I try but it all gets thrown at me like I'm nothing...

Just because I seem okay, doesn't mean I am...

When hope is lost, dreams are not far from sucide.
For hope is the light in the dream, ever giving sight to the yet unseen.

I've fallen into this hole, i cant seem to get out of. .