How many times am i going to cry
and to finally realize
that time flys by
and with every kiss
theres a lie
to each memory fills
one secret.
he seems to think hes worth fighting for

So what am i supposed to do when do when im home with family and "happy" yet being home makes me feel home sick?

& my best friend called me today, we made plans, i know he mite be the only person in my life that will never go away,he helps me with alot hes always there for me , im starting to really like him , then y am i so scared?

&& my friends told me the truth comes out when were drunk, well i found it out tonight that its really true , but y do i still love u?

I just cant understand how someone can leave there kid to fight this on there own

If they want to lie to me , that's fine it wont bother me i can lie to

Just like a snowman you build it you enjoy it and then it gets tired and melts, well thats how life is your happy then people keeps adding more and more and doesnt listens to u intell its to late

&& so tonight I will get drunk and you will finally be out of my head

&& all I can say is no one will ever understand me the way you do

Christmas is just another apportant time in my life that your not here to share it with me