"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.."

-Girl, Interrupted

I see my reflection through a dirty window, thoughts and memories all blurred and distorted. I try and clean the window yet the same reflection is displayed...

My childhood dreams I can't really see,
Everything I am is all that I wished I'd never be.
I feel myself pushing and pulling away,
I can feel it, today's the day I'm going to cave.

I feel like everything you have is not mine.

I want something to make feel better, instead of smoking and drugs.

Someone remind me how to smile, and I mean a real smile. Not that fake smile I put on everyday.

"I wish I could see a therapist before I kill myself."

If only if only....

"I try holding back the tears to stop myself from feeling weak. Then I realize when I cry it is my way of releasing some pain. I'll cry when I'm alone."

You took my boyfriend... wow. great friend.