I'm stopping her doing stupid things which she has already done! please "I" don't try so hard

My girlfriend doesn't like me because i hate her boyfriend!

Nothing I do makes a difference anymore. So why do I bother trying?

Too afraid to live. Too scared to die. Too hurt to feel. Too dead to cry

Sometimes, I'm afraid to be happy, because every time I'm happy, something goes wrong,and hurts me sometimes to the point where i wanna give up and end my life.

There are days where I know I'm completely numb

Everyday just gets a little bit harder, & everyday I try & cope with the pain & the stress hoping that one day, I'll wake up & everything will be okay again.

We're waiting for tomorrow, yet each morning, yesterday claims another victim and tomorrow is still a day out of reach.

When everyone thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not...

Please just put me out of my misery, because I can't handle living off nothing but the memories of how things used to be. The ones from back when I believed I was okay...