I don't necessarily want to be happy; I just want to stop feeling miserable.

Just another bad day, too much stress
My life has turned into such a mess
Pull out the blade, cut it away
Perfect ending to my day
Pull down my sleeves to hide the pain
Don't worry soon you'll forget my name

-from my poem Soon You'll Forget Me

If you look at me I'll say I'm fine
Though it's a lie most of the time
Put on a smile and hide the tears
It's been my secret for many years

-from my poem Soon You'll Forget Me

Sometimes it feels like someone is watching over.
saying. "oh she's happy again, we can't have that!"

Keep on running, and never look back, for If you do, you might trip, and yourself will catch up with you.

I wake up every morning hoping it will be a better day than the last and I go to bed every night wondering why someone always has to prove me wrong.

If I could commite suicide without feeling any pain, I would already be dead.

The only thing that's keeping me alive is the thought that maybe someday, i'll might be the one keeping someone else alive.

I'm about to explode with tears, anger, hurt, pain, everything bad

I try so hard to be happy, but fail miserably. Why is it I try so hard, only to fall deeper into despair than before?