Drinking, cutting, crying i want so little but it means so much, i just want something to last

I know were i belong but no one will listen i just want to go back to that other program

These last couple of days im falling apart. i am quiet then nobody will know except me. I want to be with all the other kids i want to belong i am getting to weak. im giving up

I am here waiting.. waiting for that day were i can be happy... waiting for that day were something will mean foreva..

You said u will alwayz be here.. well were r u...Im sorry i cant do this anymore nobody cares.... everythingz changing and i cant keep up

So this is it. You get to walk away with a smile on your face while I walk away with a story I can't even think about without crying.

Every morning i get up and make sure i have tht fake smile tht only just touches mi eyes and all day it take every ounce of strength i have to keep that smile there on mi face jst so people will think eveyrthings allright and im not breaking to peices!

To lose one is to gain another
be to keep pain just is not worth it.

It can only get better from here..

It hurts being slammed into rock bottom over, and over, and over again.