Sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings. Sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so I dont let them get too close. when I act numb towards you, it doesnt mean I dont care...it means I care too much.

I smile because it hides the pain,
I laugh because it makes me forget everything thats happened
I live my life pretending everythings okay
Even though it's not

The girl who seemed unbreakable...Broke
The girl who seemed so strong...Crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off...Cried
The girl who never stopped trying...Finally Quit

Break me.Take me.
Lose control.
Hurt me.Beat me,
Take my soul.
Touch me. Fcuk me.
Tear me apart.
Kiss me. Kill me.
Break.My.Heart.

Take a bow,
hear the applause?
my heart is broken
and your the cause.
I played your game
&& it looks like you've won,
congratulations,
I hope you had fun.

*not mine but I like it =]

&& even though she acts happy, on the inside she hurts

YES IM SUICIDAL

BUT I DONT WANT YOU TO SAVE ME

Just because I'm smiling, doesn't mean I'm happy.
Even though I'm hurting, it doesn't mean I'll cry.
Just because I'm angry, doesn't mean I hate you.
And even though I'm bleeding, that doesn't mean I'll die.

They say she's happy, but far from right,
They'll never know she cries at night.
They said she's perfect, but they lied,
She's just a pretty suicide.

Im so Tired
no clue Why
So I'll close my Eyes
And hope to Die
Fake a Smile
And play Pretend
Just wait for this Day
To come to an End
Another Laugh
Thought to be True
Did you know I felt this Way
Because of You?