It's worst at night, the ache. I have those few brief moments where I feel like I'll actually be okay tonight, but then it hits me like a ton of bricks like it always does. It cuts me to the core. And I can't just ignore it anymore.

Whats done is done whats said is said the words i love u which u said will forever be in my head

Now I know why they call it a crush,
because someone always gets
CRUSHED...

I close my eyes at night and dream it will be alright;
But as soon as I awake I know it was all just a lie.

I don't wanna be here anymore i wanna fly away to a place were i'm always wanted and never alone

I am happy. Now that's just the saddest lie.

My philosophy of life is that I can die at any moment,
My tragedy of life is that I don't.

I wonder if he knows i stare at my computer screen for hours just hoping he'll talk to me ...

And I'm always looking for acceptance from you. Just hoping that someday you might improve. But you never do. You never do...

And I don't tell you most of the things that go on in my life, or things that I want to do. Because you will just shoot them down. Just as fast as the words come out of my mouth.