Happy?
What's that? I don't think i remember that word...

Once you take off the blindfold of hope, you'll be able to see reality.

Dont lie to the one you love they end up finding out and you may never talk to him again

If you look at me I'll say I'm fine
Though it's a lie most of the time
Put on a smile and hide the tears
It's been my secret for many years

-from my poem Soon You'll Forget Me

And My Biggest Secret?

Im Not Okay.

"I think I am afraid to be happy because whenever I get extremely happy, something bad always happens"

You said i could always trust you, and you would never hurt me. well what is rape to you? i guess you didnt lie you did not hurt me you killed me.

Ah depression, we meet again. Sit down, I made your favorite drink. Look! I added an extra sprinkle of my self-esteem and everything!

I need to find myself. Find what I want and what I'm like. Somewhere in the mix I lost myself. A mess is what I am, but a mess is not who I am. I just need out.

It doesn't matter how many friends you have, if you dont have someone to share your love with then you're still alone when you lay your head down at night.