Sometimes promises fall of deaf ears
And things are not what they appear.

ALRIGHT I GIVE UP, you win... congrats... you broke my heart

I wish you'd just tell me you were proud of me and you love me

I dont know what to say,
i don't know what to feel
all i know is everything around me seems perfectly real.

I'm left with nothing but fear...
what do i do now?
i don't want to be scared
but i dont want to HAVE to be strong
can i just be me, for once?

Walk away with your head up. pretend its going to be alright. if they dont see the truth, who does it really hurt? im sure ill learn to cope one day. i hope.

I don't need you to be there for me,
I don't give a damn.
I used to think that you were different,
But now I realize that I'm just not the same....

I always thought that being a cutter was a weak and easy way of escape.
But now I understand that it's just a way to escape the pain inside. It's a few minutes where your mind can shift to exterior pain.. And you know what it does feel nice.

Sometimes i wonder what it would be like

to disappear into thin air, into the light

but if i leave i hope to never come back

if from ceaseless sorrows, i end my flight

i hope to never again feel a pain alike

Blood stained wrists,
Tear stained eyes.
Is this what my life has become,
Is this what i need to survive.