What we never had

Your blue eyes stick in the back of my mind;
and your smile bounces around my head
Like a basketball thrown across the court.
So many unanswered questions
leave me restless;
Unable to get the sleep I need to be able to function properly.
The good memories mix with the bad,
The sleepless nights spent crying over you last summer
interfere with the peace I need.
Did you ever really care about me;
Or was it pity that brought
You back into my life last fall?
Laying in a hospital bed alone,
I hit rock bottom
the night you came over to courteney's for that work get-together.
You'd drove me home;
And I'd never felt so far away from you...
Even when I was sitting in the back seat of your car,
Tears silently running down my face.
I'd said a quick goodnight and crawled on the couch;
Crying over the emptiness I felt because of you.
I never wanted your pity;
only your friendship.
My fragile heart only the mere twigs
on the ice cold ground of which you walked on;
Broken in two delicate pieces.
Good to know it was pity that made you be the person I needed;
Not the kindness
of the friendship You Initially wanted.
So you can live your life without regret;
While I lay here and cry for the friendship we never had.