Set Sail (Free Verse)

by IdTakeABulletForYou   Jan 4, 2017


In an overwhelming darkness,
I find myself to be searching
for a light that will never exist.

The walk down this path
is ever-tumultuous;
raped into existence by
a universe which does not care
Who I am
Why I am
What I think.

I stumble like a sailor on stormy seas,
trying to find my footing atop a surface
that won't be there forever
and could disappear at any moment,
leaving me to drown in the very substance
that sustains me.

Life is most cruel,
with death written in the code that births us,
by which I write this.

Walking, sailing, swimming;
my destination is clouded by an
inability to communicate with the me before I existed,
if such a thing ever were.
I swim for no reason but a coded fear of my own unavoidable terminality,
for life is the most notorious killer of all.

Give me the helm and this ship would sail on land,
or even not at all.
I could just stay at the port,
or at the shipyard,
never ruing for one moment
having missed the opportunity to sail the open ocean.

Each day I cling to hope that it gets better,
that my delusions of grandeur are materializing around the next corner or behind a big wave,
that perfection is attainable;
one must simply tweak our own code by a line or two.
It is then that reality sets in,
remembering that in a perfect world
I would not exist.

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  • 8 years ago

    by ddavidd

    This is a masterpiece. Haha I promised myself not to use this word. The angle in which the writer sees the world here is phenomenon. The depth that the writer examines the elements of his existence - at the same time nonexistence- is very unique. And of course the way he handles the paradoxical aspect of the universe is portentous. A mixture of philosophy, dialectical observation of the world, mysticism, and new age revelation, all through the seemingly wet lenses of a conscious and impressible talent.

  • 8 years ago

    by mossgirl19

    How deep are your thoughts! Loved all the words. A powerful read.

  • 9 years ago

    by Golden AnGel Rhapsodist

    Stephen,

    this is really a gem. ... lines well packed with emotions. .

    Congrats for winning. .

    Gel

  • 9 years ago

    by Em

    Well done on a well deserved win.

  • 9 years ago

    by deeplydesturbed

    Darling S..
    I have to break this down..

    1. This is where I am at.. just a lost soul wondering, searching for a better me.. or a sign of some sort that it gets better..

    2.we all often ask ourselves who are we.. what is our purpose.. who would really miss us if we leave this earth.. will we have left a mark..
    I guess it comes with the depression.. but im not sure..
    To answer it though everyone on here will miss you.. they.. we all know who you are.. maybe not your deepest darkest secrets but we know you.. and we will never forget you.. your mark is your poetry..

    3.this is very personal.. we all often feel like our trubles are consuming us.. will swollow us up..

    4.i agree.. life is cruel..

    5.life is a killer.. you cant live in a constant darkness... noone can. I guess its why people kill themselves so often.

    6.im sorry you feel you are stuck.. that you have missed the opportunity to set sail..

    7.i realise it sounds stupid, but it will improve. One we have hit rock bottom, there is no way but up!! Just strap in and hold on for the ride.. i guess we all fall down..

    The signature.. well there are no words..

    S.. i am glad your wrote again and hope you keep up with it. Dont let people discourage and get you downn okay.. this is so good..i live it..

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