Sound More Straight

I'm glad that it's a secret --that your words fill me with joy--
and that you haven't seemed to notice the fake voice that I employ
in an attempt to sound more straight, 'cause I'm ashamed of what I am,
and I would like to stay right where we are, but only if we can.

It's hard to manage all these feelings that you'll never know
when, at the same time, I can tell you anything 'cause we're so close.
I feel that it's a breach of trust, even if only just a bit,
that I've this grand secret I keep from you, and loving you is it.

I know you have a girlfriend (I've been down that road before)
and that this love is the equivalent to an unopened door;
one that I can only gaze at, ponder what might lay behind,
but never even touch the handle lest I lose what isn't mine.

I value this, our friendship, and these secrets shall remain
behind a door I will not open and a dream I'll have in vain.
If I'm successful I will take these feelings with me to my grave
aware that what was more important was the friendship that I saved.

-IdTakeABulletForYou