Food Is Bad

by A Broken Bleeding Soul   Apr 5, 2006

I hate myself so much right now
I gave in to food, I don't know how
I was so hungry, the pain I couldn't bare
I grabbed food and I ate without a care
One-hundred pounds and I'm convinced I'm fat
I can't stand my body, it's as simple as that
For one week I had been so strong
I hadn't eaten, not a thing went wrong
But my parents had thoughts and forced me to eat
They put food in front of me and said "Have a seat"
They watched me as I finished all of my food
And of course a lecture they had to include
Everything they said made my anger surge
I just wanted to leave so that I can purge
I ate quickly so that the food won't go down
I turned on the faucet to drown out the sound
I tried and I tried but it wouldn't come out
I couldn't purge so I started to shout
I walked out the bathroom drowning in tears
Tonight finally, I have experienced my fears
I ate food and it has still stayed in me
Its building up fat I can already see
So I'll punish myself for committing this sin
The punishment apparent on my skin
I'll starve tomorrow, even the next day
I'll make tomorrow better than today
For the girl in the mirror makes me sad
I'll just keep in mind that food is bad

© Copyright 2006


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  • 11 years ago

    by Jenni

    WOW! This was awesome girl! A lot of what you wrote has happened to me. It hit me hard. Beautifully descriptive. 5/5!

  • 11 years ago

    by LadyPearl

    Nice job, though this poem didn't really speak out to me, it seemed to have too many "fill" words. Keep it up

  • 11 years ago

    by Rachel

    A really deep poem which flows so well and is explained so well. You are really gifted at expressing yourself!

  • 12 years ago

    by Melissa S. Masucci

    What a powerfully sad poem. The message itself is interesting - not many people write about things like eating disorders in the frame of someone who wants to keep doing it. Usually they're anti or "I wish I could stop". I think word choices make this sound a little weaker than it could, a vocabulary issue I'm sure. But it's very good.

  • 12 years ago

    by Dani

    i love this and relate to it... if this is what u feel i no exacly what ur going through.i havent eatn a full proper meal 4 3 months,i still hate my body and think im fat.i hate the feeling but cant make it hard as i try it just wont.i just wana let u no ur not the only 1 going through this and if u wont some1 to take to im here
    Dani XXXX