It has been over a year and the pain is so fresh
it feels like there are monsters tearing at my flesh.

You weren't supposed to die,
I used to think you'd be here forever
to this whole family you were the glue,
you're the one that kept us all together !! x

R.I.P NANNA

And I'll take all the tears we've cried for you,
And sprinkle the world with it's dew;
Because only then will it sparkle like it used to do.

I wish i knew that by good night you really meant goodbye.

You seem so far away and I don't mean distance. I'm in the now and my mind keeps trying to force you into the past.

Black tears flow,
Inside of me and there's nothing else; just sadness.
I can't even put into words,
My whole body is releasing pain,
And I can't face it all on my own.

Say it, say what you needed to say, you know you'll feel better now, and hate me, hate me for all of the ways i let you down, in search of you i lost myself, dont you feel better now?

-olr

"you are my hope when giving in, you are the ink under my skin, you are the day that i await, you'd be the only chance i take, all i am and lost before, the things i love and i adore, my hand full of hope and a little more"

I never know when I do something wrong, because for you everything I ever say or do is wrong!

To this day i cry for you
and wish for your return
if miracles were real
god would give you back to me