Pain keeps me alive

No one can get through to me.
The lights are on, but nobodies home.
I stay inside my mental prison.
Safe and sound behind this dome.

I have great friends and yet, I feel lost.
Social life just seems miles away.
My greatest goal in my life is simple;
Just to make it through the day.

I keep all this pain inside my soul.
I know no relief or vent.
The strength to make it through,
seems to be so heaven sent.

Without a heart, or soul, I stand.
Finding it hard to survive.
I am numb to all happiness.
pain is what keeps me alive.