Love how you showed the kind of man you fell in love with.
You show slight change but good change that would ultimately make you love him more.
You see a different more negative change. Though maybe not yet a deal breaker, you see he is a different and changing man to the one you first fell in love with.
You realise he's cheating on you. But perhaps because you have been together for years now, you think you may be able to survive this, if only the man you knew would return.
He's been tryingto redeem himself but not enough. You can love someone, but trust is harder and once broken its so very hard to repair it. You can forgive, but its harder to forget. To forget the sins, to forget the man you fell in love with...
Realising he wont change, he will only get worse from here. Realising loving him is pointless because you will only be second to the drink...
Nicely penned. You have expressed the emotion intensely as well as allowing the reader to guess at a few things themselves - the art of a skilled writer!
Loved how you wrote in annual increments down to the last day... Set the pace of the poem beautifully. 5/5