Alone with my thoughts

Here alone with my
thoughts
Remembering the yesterdays
My dad was diagnosed of a disease
The doctor left a threat
His life will soon be
ceased.

Faced in his fears
With traces of tears
Streaming from his eyes
Like rain, reaching out for
The ground
Knowing, in the grave
Shall he soon be found.

Unto me, he yells
"My little boy,
My precious gold.
Its so sad I won't watch
You grow
I'm sorry, i can't see
tomorrow
The realities of life fills me
with sorrow
Please wipe your tears
Remember,
Its your birthday
tomorrow.

Think not the happy time we had shared
But replace every memory
Of yesterday with the present
Take the good that life can give
For the time you have
To live.

For the woman i love,
Spoil her with your care
Give her a better life
Even when am not there,
But always remember
I will always be there"

The cloud was getting dark
Only could i hear the dog bark
Dad was counting on
breath
Now i know the proximity
of death
How i wish i never saw this day,
Tears fills my heart to see dad go this way.

Mom with a hazy eyes
Streaming with tears
For a man, who was so dear.

He is a gift i thought
I once had,
A smile i thought
won't fade away,
A light i thought
Won't go dim
My life used to be so
pretty,
But death stole my
dreams
And made my tears a
stream

My world is so empty
All what is left is pain
Can't stop the tears
They fall like rain,
They say chin up
But i just feel like
Giving up,
Broken heart fills me
With sorrow
God tell me there will be a brighter tomorrow.

5months still thinking
Of all the yesterdays,
Trying to refill my heart
with new hopes
"Times heals all wound" they say
But i still cry,
Hoping it someday gets dry.

After shine, comes storm
Now facing the harsh
realities of life
At 12, I've had a life full of rue,
Thrown out of school cos i had no fees,
Mom streaming in tears
She couldn't afford our feeds
I never had it easy
And life wasn't fun

Trauma everyday
The drama still replay
Somebody please tell
mum
It is going to be okay
It saddens me to see her cry this way.
Tell her to put away the knife
Tell her am on the streets
To play the hard life,
Trying to bring back the lost days & stolen smiles
Above all, tell her
I LOVE HER!