Have You Ever Cared?

I have spent my life
Bowing down to
What others want
I try to help them
Putting their needs
Before my own

But when I try
To speak up about
My own deep pain
I find that people
Just don't care

People are selfish
They want help
But refuse to give it
When you need it most

I have stopped myself
A thousand times
From doing things
That you would hate

Yet now, here I stand
Needing your help
And you turn away from me
You give up when I
Am struggling to not
Do the exact same thing

You do what everyone
Else always does
You pass me on
For someone else to
Deal with me but
They don't want to either

So I am constantly
Reminded that I am
Unwanted, unloved
Utterly worthless
Though for a time you
Had convinced me otherwise

Well, I am done
Just like you are
I'm tired of the games
Where you pretend to care
Only to betray me

I'm tired of the tears
That run down my face
Every single night
With no one to care

I'm tired of staying
Here for you
When you won't
Stay here for me

I would say sorry
For failing you
But you don't care
Have you ever really?

So, now I am going
To walk away from this all
I can't wait to leave
Behind all this pain