Confusion of this Game in Love

I’ve never been in love
It was just a lie
What was the deal with this guy?

He said he loved me
But no he didn’t see
He was blinded by a game

To play on me to find his unknown fame
I was just a pawn, used and played
The pain will never cease or fade

I shouldn’t have looked in his eyes
And found it glistening that mystified
After a while, we were envied.

But in secret I heard the whispers.
I couldn’t believe it, no.
It was hard to take, so I shook my head no.

No, no, no, I told myself.
But maybe…NO
Denial.

I asked him, he admitted it.
I said it was final.
He stared, blank and empty.

His friends laughed as I ran away with my tears.
Love, now would become my biggest fear.

The next day, him still emotionless
He felt sorry for me or maybe he really did care
Although my heart he did tear.

His friends still laughing, he grew tense.
He sensed
My uncomfortable position

I couldn’t look at him, but I knew he looked at me.
But I was drawn to stare and wonder.
He certainly looks regretful I thought softly

Calming down, I got over it
All’s fair in love and war.
Giving up on love made me sore

But I’ve tried so many times and failed
This was my last time
No need for a good-bye

He walked over to me and apologized
And said his game was not wise
My voice said I forgave him, but still it hurt

He sat down and began to flirt
I backed off remembering I gave up
But maybe he’s different and really in love

No, I know better than that
For all he wants is another chance
To go with the flow
I’ll play along this time so he won’t know

Hopefully it won’t show
Wow, he’s really good
Any one could be a fool

But as we played
It got more serious
More romantic and I realized this wasn’t another game to win his fame

He really cared for me and so did I
Our relationship moved slowly
But in mind, it moved quickly

We both were lost in this game of love
We found each other
And now we wouldn’t let go of one another

Is this really love?
I feel so wonderful and that nothing can bring me down
Every time we’d kiss

It was just this sentiment bliss
Now I’m flying,
In his arms holding around me so tight

Feeling safe and secure
Our affection was so great and pure
Like two white doves
In this journey of love.