Fluorescent Stars.

All around the empty spaced room
Laying quietly on my bed spread
I start to count the fluorescent stars
That glow like a color of yellowy red

My body feels damaged and weak
So I reach for my tattered knife
The only thing that saves me
From this dark n blackened life.

Dazzlingly I follow through in a phase
This really will make me feel better
I know because I've done it before
No longer feeling like writing a letter

So as I take my tattered little knife
I slit into something I can't even see
Because everything became a blur
I don't even know the inside of me.

As the blood drops on my bed
In between a giggle I widely grin
I look at what I have severely done
Not believing how deeply I went in.

I start to laugh so angrily hard
That my eyes stream with tears
I couldn't believe how funny it was
How easily I got rid of my fears.

But then I suddenly figure out
That all the blood on my bed
Was drenched like those stars
Just a complete bloody red.

A fear started running up my spine
And I started to see colors of white
My limbs got so weak and I cried
I cried and I tried to hold on tight.

My breaths cut to short gasps
I couldn't but I really tried
I hoped and prayed to God
That tonight I wouldn't die.

I started to shake so violently
Couldn't help but hear the voices
I once thought they lied to me
Telling me I'm making wrong choices

Suddenly my breathing truly stops
And I'm laying there just lifeless
I just couldn't help anything at all
My life was just a tattered mess.

But as I'm silently laying there
I guess an angel was at my side
She told me everything is okay
And that I won't have to hide.

So all around the empty spaced room
Laying quietly on my bed spread
I open my eyes to see
That same fluorescent star, glowing, a yellowy red.