Who I Will Be

I was told I had nothing of any real concern,
that I was void of anything, which I had to learn.
My grades were bad and my friends a joke,
but unlike others I seen, I never took to smoke.
I seen you all tell me I was to be laughed at and lead astray,
and that I should shut up because I had nothing to say.
You weaved a circle of pain I thought would never end,
but it was I that vowed I would never bend.
Bend to the will of people that had no love for me,
show to them a future that I could only see.
My family aided me in all that they could,
they were the driving force that showed me I would.
I am 15 years older and I have not yet come to my peek,
but there is a goal I see in which I seek.
My words are humble they were built on pain,
and I know now that my life is not in vain.
You gave me no reason to live any other way,
but it is you that will finally see my day.
I may be dead or even alive,
but through these words I will always survive.
I know what I live for and what I must do,
for this I know is the only thing that is true.
I will grant this in the end, what life I have to give,
and through these words I will live.
Take your words and thoughts that had once brought pain to me,
and gaze into my eyes and let me set you free.
I have seen the world as no one ever will,
and that driving force is my lasting will.
I have no children for these words are my only gift in life,
and through these sentences you will feel my strife.
In the end I know I will be like we all must one day,
but unlike you my thoughts and visions will always stay.

Written By
Robert Lee Niswander
Copyright 2004