Falling from grace

You'd think I'd see it coming
remember from before
instead i fell, I'm trapped again
just asking for more

why do i let myself
do this again and again
why wont i just learn
he only brings more pain

so angry at myself
for letting my standards go
for letting him realize
i still love him so

he's ignoring me again
and i have no one else to blame
he knows he's in control
and knows i need him to be whole

he can see the colour fade
from my face now so plain
when hes holding her
he sees it driving me insane

why cant that be me
surrounded in his arms
why does he no longer care
that I'm the one he harms

how does he just stand by
and watch me fall from grace
why is that instead of help
hes made me think my life's a waste