The Darkness Inside me

Each day i wake up just the same
it's like each day is just a game
it's flying by my eyes so fast
but it's like I'm reliving my past

i wonder is this what life is?
getting married and having kids
is that all we are meant for in life?
i hate it with each passing night

why does life have to be like this
everything seems to be hit or miss
i always seem to miss the target
life slammed me with a left hard hit

i wish i had an explanation
or even something extenuating
i wish my life was better
the weight seems to get heavier

each day i looker into the mirror
each day i hate what i see
i wonder is it really me?
i wonder am i really here?

i wish that the day would go faster
we are slaves to an invisible master
told what to do and what to think
the ship is always on the brink

encaged in my prison cell
engaged in my personal hell
is it always going to be this way
to feel in so much disarray

is this how i was meant to be
is everyone like this ...just like me
i try to understand it and never can
i hate life, reminded so by my hand

the darkness is now taken over
i smile just to make up a cover
if they only knew the real one
all appalled and all very stunned