Suicide Runs In The Family

*Dedicated to my cousin... R.I.P.*

I never knew your true fate
I was lied to from the start
"It was just an accident"
An accident tearing at my heart

I was only 9 years old
My family just had to lie
I was never told the real reason
Of how you happened to die

I never knew you threw yourself over
I never knew you hated life
I never knew you were so depressed
And filled with so much strife

"It was just an accident baby
He fell out of the 12th floor
He got dizzy and fell out the window
We don't have our dear cousin anymore

Even though he's no longer around
He loves you more than you know
I know you're hurting baby
But it was his turn to go"

I heard these words over and over
I heard them day after day
A few months after it occurred to me
That you have forever gone away

Seven years after your tragic death
The truth I'm finally told
I'm rushed with painful emotions
From all the secrets you hold

Your death wasn't an accident
Your death was suicide
Now I see how similar we are
We're so similar inside

And now I feel like you died again
Because now I know your death
You took your own precious life
You took your last breath

To make us more similar
You used to cut yourself too
But please don't feel too bad
Because cutting is something I do

They say "suicide runs in the family"
I wonder if it's true
All I know is that I'm still young
And I can't wait to see you

*R.I.P. 1973 - 1998... dedicated to my cousin who committed suicide at the age of 25*

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