So Much Pain You Caused

You yell and scream
you cuss and swear

I'm in so much pain
yet you don't care

then again, I'm old enough so its fair
as you raise up your hand i try to prepare

scratch me deep
make me weep

I'm in so much pain
i don't have anything to gain

i say to myself its what i deserve
tell myself its what i need
i must have done some kind of bad deed
this punishment i will serve

I'm in so much pain
please end it all now

I hate you is all i can seem to say
you pushed me off the edge that day

pull me around by my wrist
toss me on the ground i know your pissed

i grabbed the gun
i quickly put it to my head
planning to pain the walls in red

you got to see the bullet go through my head
you got to see the walls splattered in red

I hate you
was the last thing i said

you have my death on your mind
how you were so cruel and unkind

you start to regret
the things you did to me
none of it matters now