Catch my fall

The walls are closing in on me
the rooms are getting too small
this is where you locked me up
instead of catching my fall

This is my secret place now
where I'm suppose to hide away
but I only hide in the dark
waiting for a brighter day

I see these trails of dark red
they runs along my skinny arm
I never wanted to do this
I never wanted to self harm

I can see my bones sticking out
I love to count my beautiful rips
to you it might seem like an obsession
but to me perfection is skinny hips

My face is tired and pale
my eyes don't shine anymore
my weight is now about 110
and I only want to lose 10 more

Why did you leave me here
why am I once again all alone
haven't seen you in a month now
please come and take me home

People here fills me with pills
but sadly they don't give enough
please just give me enough to die
that's all I am thinking of

I don't want to be here forever
In this place,when I'm just fine
they took away my precious blade
if only I could use it one more time

The walls are closing in on me
my room is getting too small
I will die without you here
to catch my suicide fall

Copyright 2005 - Sabrina Stelmach