Through your Eyes

by Avellana   Jan 8, 2006


It really does surprise me
At just how blind people can be
Am I just that good an actress?
Or do people just see
What they want to see

The days are getting longer
And the nights are longer still
The air, it gets to stale to breathe
And the ground, remains too stable

I know it's my fault that I'm here
But I just can't find the light
I'm stumbling in the darkness
While losing the will to fight

Sometimes I wish I didn't care
I wish I'd never loved
Maybe then I could sleep
And finally function

I'm always looking pasty
Like I don't get enough light
I seem to be forever frowning
Like I can't be bothered to even try

If you knew
How much it costs
When I smile to put you at ease
To reassure you that I'm doing fine
And that I always eat

For when I'm alone, I daydream
And I pray for it all to end
I feel this weight upon my chest
And cry as I feel it spread

For I hate what's looking back at me
This Demon in Disguise
I hate myself, so much I live,
Only through your eyes

I don't see an end point to this pain, it just wont go away.
I'm only living to hurt for longer.

And what sense is there in that.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Sarah Ann

    Wow that was reallly a good poem. One of the best Ive read in a while. So much emotion put into it. Keep it up. xxx

  • 18 years ago

    by EJ

    Hey i loved the poem! i could really relate to it.. it was really sad but still really good.. If u ever just wanna talk about anything just holler at me anytime..
    Stay strong and dont give up..
    EJ

    Ps. thanks for the comment!!

  • 18 years ago

    by Torn

    Omg...*jaw drops*
    this was such a sad poem girl..
    i liked every verse but this one really stood out
    "I know it's my fault that I'm here
    But I just can't find the light
    I'm stumbling in the darkness
    While losing the will to fight"

    so goddam true.
    Im in the exact same position, and i couldn't have written it better.
    So im not sure what to tell you, only that maybe things will get better..and its a worth a try to find out..
    Take care
    >torn -x.x.x-

  • 18 years ago

    by Emma

    Wow Avellana...this poem really makes sense to me. I have been feeling a lot like this, and I love this poem. It is as if you are writing what I want to write but can't seem to put in words. Amazing.

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