My Secret Alter

by BleedingAngel   Nov 11, 2006

I kneel beside my alter
And say a little prayer
Feels just like the first time
I ever got down and knelt there

I pray while tears rolls down
I feel so sick again today
I hate having these feelings
I hate that I'm waisting away

Oh please God forgive my sins
And for what I'm about to do
I know what I do is wrong
And I really want to do right for you

I finish my prayer with amen
I feel so damn guilty within
Kneeling beside my bathroom alter
Preparing to do my daily sin

Two fingers down my throat
I feel how my stomach burn now
I really want to stop what I'm doing
But God I just don't know how

I don't remember how it started
But I got addicted to my ED
It has taken over my life
And a demon has taken over me

Later I will kneel here again
Though I promised myself not to
But I have lost all control now
So this is all I ever do

Copyright 2006 - Sabrina Stelmach


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  • 13 years ago

    by LifeThroughMyEyes
    i love it

  • 13 years ago

    by waking up inside

    :0 omg this poem is amazing. I wish mine were half as good

  • 13 years ago

    by Brittney Follett

    Yikes. You really got the topic down. The only problems I found were:

    I pray while tears rolls down
    *** roll*
    And I really want to do right for you
    *** too long try it without and.

    Other than that, your rhyming, beat, vocab, and flow where amazing. You did a great job!


  • 13 years ago

    by Jenie

    Sis! u can do it!! u dont need ras for ur support clintch! u can make it on ur own and u will find someone who will treat u the same...just better!! itll be better bc ull love him and c him in the future! trust me!! have faith sis!!
    someone keeps giving me all 1/5 on my poems
    why r people so hurtful??
    they rated "decide" a 1/5

  • 13 years ago

    by Hayley

    Wow this is amazing hun, i miss your poems your on my faves list still! if you ever need to talk i'm always here to listen, i know what your going through..
    xoxo hayley