Old Habits Die Hard

I have fallen victim to my old habits
The ones that you never knew about
Everyone thinks I've got it all together
But I could give plenty of room for doubt

Reality doesn't seem quite as harsh
When you can't feel anything at all
But loneliness sinks in far too deep
If no one's there to catch your fall

No one has noticed the pain I'm in
Or the mistakes I'm forced to hide
So I still smile and try to act alright
When I'm falling to pieces inside

It's all coming back to haunt me
Everything in my past; the habits and lies
I always thought I was stronger than this
But in the end, all hope of strength dies

I've uncovered a past that was once well buried
I'm terrified of becoming who I was before
I never thought it'd all come down to this
But no one cares enough to stop me anymore