I'll never.... but i will always

I'll never get to be with you,
again,
i ruined my life,
way back when,

I'll never get to fix us,
or repay you for what happened,
I'll never be the super model,
who sets the new fashion trend,

I'll never get to hold you tight,
and have you whisper i love you in my ear,
I'll never be you,
the person without a fear,

I'll never be able to fly,
or reads peoples minds,
the only thing i can possible do,
is make these pathetic rhymes,

I'll never have you love me again,
or be that girl of your dreams,
I'll never be anything,
at least that's what it seems,

I'll never be the girl you call,
that you talk on the phone for hours too,
that girl i will never be,
even though i love you,

I'll never erase the hurt,
that happen long ago,
but i will always love you,
and that i just want you to know,

I'll never be your angel,
or the hero that you want,
I'll never be with you,
for me the past will always haunt,

I'll never be in your dream,
or the girl you always mention to friends,
I'll never be that girl,
I'll never be the sign that god always sends,

I'll never be anything valuable to you,
I'll never even matter,
I'll never be a thought,
your heart I'll never flatter,

I'll never be your moon,
I'll never be your sun,
i ruined all my hopes and dreams,
the minute i said we were done,

I'll never be forgiven,
for the evil sin I've done,
I'll never be your girl again,
your only one,

I'll never be priceless to you,
I'll never look in your eyes,
the only thing I'll ever be,
is the heart broken angel who cries,

I'll never ever make you smile,
or make your problems disappear,
the only thing I'll ever be,
is a girl who is full of fear,

I'll never be your first priority,
I'll never be your second,
i ruined your life,
and mine i have saddened,

I'll never forget the past,
of what happened long ago,
but i will always love you,
and that is what i want you to know,

I'll always wait for you,
I'll always want your love,
to me,
you'll always be my sign from above,

even though i talk about all these other boys,
I'm trying to get my thoughts off you,
but it never works,
no matter what i change the subject too,

I'll never have you love me,
but i will always love you,
even though,
you may not love me too,

I'll never let you fall,
I'll never let you cry,
I'll always be right there,
when you want to die,

I'll never hold you close,
or talk to you on the phone all night,
but you'll always be on my mind,
you'll always be my eyesight,

no matter what happens,
i promise I'll always love you,
and for you to stay my friends,
i will do what i have to do,

i will never forget the past,
and what happened so long ago,
but i still want you and love you,
and those are the things i want you to know...........................

by,Denysia Chapman-Madden