I look at the food,
and turn away,
i tell myself,
i already ate one meal today,
Mom yells at me to eat it,
i refuse and say I'm not hungry,
while in reality,
inside I'm eating me,
As my mind wants the food,
but my mind controls it and says no,
why i am doing this,
i honestly don't know,
you all see,
a girl perfect size,
but when i look in the mirror,
that's not what i see in my eyes,
You see a girl,
perfect size for her age,
but i see a girl,
who is a frightened pig in a cage,
i strive to be skinny,
and look like the models on TV,
i want to be like them,
i want that to be me,
they are my inspiration,
i see them when i turn away from the plate,
i know i have to stop,
or anorexia will be my fate,
i know i need to eat,
to have calories to burn,
so i am going to start,
for those people i make concerned,
i know it's wrong,
and i know it's not right,
but there's something about it,
that keeps me up at night,
i want to be skinny,
beautiful.. that girl everyone wants to be,
so i don't eat,
even when I'm hungry,
i know it's unhealthy,
and it makes my insides it me,
but i can't see me as skinny,
don't you all see,
but i am going to stop,
because allot of you are worried for me,
and i know i have to eat to live,
in all reality,
so I'll eat three meals a day,
and won't miss a single meal,
i promise you all,
that is my deal,
for all the people,
who see the real beauty in me,
thanks for showing me,
that side i didn't see,
the one side that was controlling my body,
will now back down and let the good side take a stand,
because if i don't stop not eating,
soon i will be damned,
so as a gift for the people,
who show that they care,
thank you so much,
for helping me want to heal my life's tare,
so here it goes,
i am going to stand and fight,
no matter what it takes,
I'll do what is right,
I'll eat three meals a day,
and i won't get beat,
believe me when i say this last line,
i am going to eat.....
