His Cinderella

I'm watching this romantic movie
And it leads to thoughts of you
I thought that I was over it
But I guess that I'm not through.

Cuz here I sit with tears pouring
Just streaming down my face
I can't seem to let you go
But yet you are going away.

I've loved you for a secret year
And you proposed to her
Now I'm supposed to be over it
Trust me, that's what I prefer

But since I've held on so long
My grip is just too tight.
How can I let you slip away?
To me, it doesn't feel right.

No one seems to understand
Why I loved you so much
They said there's things I can't see
My mind shuts off to such

It's not that I ignored them all
I can see their side of it too
But they aren't struggling with
The way I feel about you.

The desperation that I've felt
The pulling at my heart
The knowing that my world
Is quickly crumbling apart

And inside I'm sort of happy
And then again I'm not
I hope the best for you both
But I have to force those thoughts.

I'm in hate with love right now
It's beaten to the ground
When I think of getting up
It pushes be back down.

So until I find another man
Who makes me like this.
I'm forced to live in agony
While you live in marriage bliss.

And it haunts my every moment
Of every single day
That I've lost the love of my life
And watch him walk away.

So as I finish this fairytale movie
Where the best friend loses the game
And she isn't his cinderella
I know that I'm just the same.