A new lease of life

The first cut is the deepest,
That's not always true,
If the first one doesn't do it,
The fourth one will cut straight through.

Am I talking from experience,
I am not really sure.
My head has gone all woozy,
I don't know whats real anymore.

I opened up my wrist vein,
It cut through crisp and clean.
The blood flows out from it,
Theres a puddle as deep as a ravine.

I'm looking in the mirror,
Not sure what I see.
I'm standing there staring at a shadow ,
of the man I used to be.

How did I get here?
Are things really that bad.
It's too late for questions,
They just make me mad.

I fell to the ground,
Like a rock from a cliff.
Rigamortis has kicked in,
I've suddenly gone all stiff.

Looking up at the ceiling,
I saw it there so bright.
At that moment I knew I had died,
And I should go into the light.

I fought with my soul,
Telling it not to go.
I wasn't ready to give up the fight,
My tears belonged to woe.

The realization hit me,
I knew what I had to do.
Live life to the fullest,
And to myself, always be true.

I hate it that I hate myself,
Just give me a second chance.
If you're happy with the changes I make,
To the light I will advance.

Give me this, my second day,
And I will surely succeed.
Give me air into my lungs,
I beg of you, I plead.

From this daze I did awake,
But was it all a dream?
The scars are proof that this was real,
Stitched up at the seam.

From now on everyday will be new,
And I'll cherish life always.
As long as theres a beat in my heart,
I'll be happy for the rest of my days.