I guess what scares me is knowing that at any moment you could rip my heart out and step on it and I would just pick it up and hand it right back to you

I question my existence...

How can anyone love me... when i don't even love myself.

"Close your eyes, take a deep breathe and smile...as if everything is ok..."

Time to start another day, pretending to be that perfect person, I know I'll never be.

Can you see the torture I inflict upon myself. -
The scars that riddle my arms - My silent plea for help.

You could never love me the way that I love you,
I know I have to let go of you soon.
The problem is I want to hold on,
Even though I now know you're a con

I scream because I don't know what else to do,
I'm playing a game I know eventually I'll lose.
I try to stay happy and plaster smiles,
The sadness ignores my efforts and slowly piles.

I can't see clearly through all of the pain,
No matter how much I try everything stays the same.
I turn to drinks to calm the sad thoughts,
The problem is your always crystal clear between the shots.

Nothing lasts forever.