For years I've avoided covering my scars
I want someone to see them
to give me a reason to stop...

I'm still waiting.

People change for two reasons; either you learn enough that you want to, or you've been hurt enough that you have to.

Really??? because im doing the best i can

Its funny i thought i could never handle losing you, but now that i am im still breathing and living, i can lose the closest and still move on, we are strong deep down.

I want to just stay home today and not bother with anyone, but i know i need to keep doing this stuff of "trying" to get better, when i relize its all hopeless. ughhh

Everyday it pops into my mind i try to fight it , but yet i dont want to live like this, i wanna let go and fly away

If anything i think im more dissapointed in my self... everything is makeing me worse. i just want it to stop!

Times no good, it takes our loved ones, it withers our bodies, drifts us from once close friends, it tricks our minds, hovers over us every second,we have no control, time is the most evil potion i can think of.

I wish my mom would stop telling me what to do with my life, After all she doesnt know how hard it is, hasnt it always been her going guy to guy, at least im trying on my own

I dont understand why your trying now, its weird being with you, im scared, but once again i love you so much, i jsut dont know