Crying all night, trying to deal with stuff, Cutting intell i cant stop, this is my life now, its never going to change!

Im so hurt, i just wanna say screw it and mess up, i dont want to keep trying!!!!!

I'm so messed up, i don't know how to explain how i feel anymore

I didn't choose to feel this pain, so why is it here? And when is it going away?

She feels separate from this world, no goodness only hurt, isnt it sad she knows she could live her whole life like this?

Making excuses to try and slow life down.

The girl who seemed so strong-crumbled.
The girl who always laughed it off-cried.
The girl who never stoped trying..
finaly gave up.

I'm going to smile, like nothings wrong, smile like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend that it's not killing me.

If "cutters" are seeking "attention" then why do we wear long sleeves and make up excuses?

I wish I could go back on being a kid again, back when people around me cared so much in every little move I make