If I were to fall into a black hole, would you catch me? Or only pull me up from the surface? Or would you just forget about me completly?

Sometimes a person has to fall, to know how good they had it

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I don't know what I wanna see.
My world use to be worth living for,
&& now it's hard enough just to be me

Just because her eyes don't tear
Doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry.
&& just because she comes off strong Doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

You say you understand..
But, do you know what it's like to want to die?? How it hurts to smile?? How you try to fit in, but you can't?? How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside??

She smiles with all that she has left
Yet tears are left undried
& Though she's got so much to say
She bottles it up inside
If you look past her broken eyes
To a shadow no one sees
A disguise so you won't recognize
The girl is really me..

There's this girl in the mirror
I wonder who she is
Sometimes I think I know her
&& sometimes I wish I did
There is a story in her eyes
lullabies && goodbye
When she's looking back at me
I can tell she's hurting inside

Why do I even open my mouth? You're just gonna be mad.

I apologize but I'm going to go now
Before I start to cry.
Don't be mad.
You of all people don't deserve to be mad.

Im now have everything i ever wanted.. y do i still want to die so bad??? i dont understand