Just put me off the edge
make me fall hard enough so i have no feeling left
im tired of feeling

And even after all this time has past
I still think of the way things use to be
and miss it so much

&& There’s those occasional nights, when you break down && cry because, you know, things will never be the same...

Behind the smile, behind the lies, is a worn out girl, who's life has been lived around unfulfilled promises.

Its not that I wanted EVERYTHING to change, but I was so torn apart after everything that had happened, that I really just NEEDED things to change.

THis week i see my life falling apart and the more i try the more i fail :( i really need to talk

Depression overwhelms me. Sweeps through my whole body and takes over my life.

I'm lucky, I have everything
So why can I still convince myself to cry?

I've left the old me behind
I've left her in the hollows of my mind
For the charade of a happy girl

Originally written 27-7-2008

I'm loosing myself among all the lies you are saying
What am I becoming?

Orginally written 23-7-2008