I'd rather feel pain
than nothing at all.

I've locked it up
and put it away
then hid the key.
didn't bother to make a map
no one would want it anyway

Take my hand.
as I'm falling.
and watch the blood run down.

For the first time in a long time i cut again
and for the first time in a long time i felt FREE

I see myself in the mirror and ask myself "Have I seen you before?"...I dont look alive in the mirror, just a reflection of death...and its a reflection of me...

My tears dont look real to me anymore...

Cheer up, wipe your damp eyes and tell me when it rains...

"I figure I couldn't have everything, but at least if anything I could have you..."

"I still believe I can't be saved" -- Smashing Pumpkins

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders, Family and Friendships in crisis that only grow colder