I am trying to hold myself together but it's just not working ..

Just let me sleep away don't wake me up just don't wake me up, I am waiting for the sadness to disappear. I just want it to disappear I wish it would just disappear, just disappear now sadness !

I want to sleep until the sadness fades away.

I have a strong heart not a mountain,
In which u throw stone every day,
Stop hurting me, I can't bear more.

Save your pleas, no one saves the strays

Life is but a puddle, full of mud that you get dragged through

And it's back the feeling of loneliness, but where are the people that said they cared about me? Where are my friends when I need them the most?

Need to go. bye friends

I glance at the mirror one last time
Nothing has revised
Maybe this is my punishment
To always be someone I despise

From my poem Killing the Facade

And it's finally coming back to me.. The need to feel the pain.