[&] i close my eyes,
aand the flashback starts .

Sometimes I wish I would die under tragic circumstances while I'm still young, so people will remember me for everything I could have been, instead of growing older and failing to live up to the expectations set for me.

I fix my heart and put om my makeup

I don't know what to tell you anymore, I regret what I have done and I always say its in the past, it's all history I'll move on, but history for me keeps repeating itself and it kills.

I attempted to find this thing called 'happiness' but it just became another thing I failed at

The release the flow that heals the pain thats love

You don't understand why I can't breathe
Why I fall down everyday to my knees
Why I surrender to my pain
Why I won't go through this again

"Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense?
Well that is how i feel right now...
I feel like I'm facing everything on my own with nothing but tears and a fake smile..."

"And you couldn't possibly understand the pain i go through..."

"Can you see the pain my eyes secretly hide?..."