Can't remember a day where i didn't fake a smile...

Behind my face, behind my eyes, holds back so much pain and sadness no one could ever imagine, just hold up my head and put on a face for the world.

Locked in a prison.......of my own design.

Will i ever have it.

Even though ive moved on its still really hard to walk away.

Pain is only a figment of the imagnation. .

" You would have to go back to earth eventually and experience a new life all over again faced with the same difficulties that you faced in this lifetime. You will stay with these lost and confused souls until then. Suicide is not an escape."

If I had committed suicide, I'd just be another statistic but now I'm still alive, I'm another survivor who made it through the war.

My face smile, my heart hurt.
outside laughing but inside crying.
life seems to full wit joy but deep wit miserable.
u know y?
because of U .....

Its not the pain, its trying to hide it that hurts.