Darkness seaps into my skin
As i lie awake in bed
Finishing a book with a happy ending
And wishing happy endings were really true

I envy your tears,
for i have cried all mine away.

I'm screaming , but nobody hears me

A Sad Truth: I could wear a pair of short shorts-walk with a sway of my hips, bend over infront of you and still in an hour not gain your attention...

Yet in a single moment, the instant she walks into the room she has yours!

Everytime you looked at her was an opportunity to look at me but you thought she was better.

You may think you know me
but the person you know isnt me
its the person i pretend to be
while the real me
sits inside
rotting away

The days when i go to school feeling confident, and Alive...
Those are the days when people tear me down inside...

-from my poem "And I Let You"-

You want me to talk to you, before i do anything i'll regret.you want me to tell you,about how i feel.you made me promise
never to do it again but how can i talk to you
when its you that makes me feel this way
and do this thing i do.

I cant feel these tears
i cant feel my pain
ive driven my body
number and number
with every slice of my blade

It hurts so much,, why cant I cry :/