&&every night she cries herself to sleep knowing that *no one* will ever understand why...

When I'm on my own it doesn't matter if I cry :[

I'm scared to shut my eyes, to even sleep at night
why do you scream and yell
i swear this is my hell
i want to get away
everything i'll do
will end up hurting you
i want you to know
that ill love you no matter where i go!

Water-proof mascara and band-aids wont do
the make-up still runs
and the blood still beeds through

I can deal with this in one way.
I'd rather hurt myself than hurt you.

I took my jacket off, showed my arm to the world...
you chose to look away, you ask about the cut on my finger but not the ones that cover my wrist.

just ask about it... make me tell you... I want you to know

Waited 2 fall in love...
waited 4 him 2 love me back...
waited 4 the heart break...
waited 4 the pain 2 stop...
waiting 2 stop waiting...
~last line is from a poem of "contemplating spontaneity" check him out, under my favorite authors!~

Can't You See How All Of This Is Breaking Me Cant You Tell How Hurt I Am? Dont You Know Whats Causing This? Dont You See I Need Help? Its Because I Want To Be Like Her The One You Seem To Adore So Much, I Want To Make You Feel Like She Does!

All Alone Again With No To Hold Her,
All Alone Again With No On To Stop Her,
All Alone Again Lying On The Floor With Tears Falling Down Her Cheeks, All Alone Again With Cut Up Wrist!

And Now She's Started Again,
The Cuts Are Getting Deeper,
Her Life Is In Pieces,
And She's Got No One To Turn To,
She's Alone!