People cut themselves because if they cut the people causing the pain people will call it attempt murder...

I wish you could feel how I feel right now.

; i mean, you don't go from loser to hot btch over night without a little mental illness.

A severe depressive episode is like a black hole of nothingness into which all my thoughts, energy, reasoning, God, relationships, love and hope get sucked into...losing their power to influence. They are sucked dry and left distorted and dismantled...

The day after a dark depressive episode is the sweetest...my gratitude that the darkness is passing creates an exaggerated sense of relief. I mistakenly equate this feeling with happiness and I willingly savor the illusion until it comes crashing down.

It hurts knowing that every time i need you....you just disappear without a second look back... why do you not care dad?

"The louder silence becomes
the weaker the light in her eyes
the longer her skin doesn't have warmth
the smaller her heart is in size..." -The Girl Inside of Me, Malazjha

"I cannot be lost, Because I've never been found"

You are beautiful but your soul is empty.
You are in love, but the butterflies are dead.
You can run, but your feet are way too weak,
You are breathing, but you're only alive inside your head.

Such little shoulders can't carry this heavy heart of yours.