Just because I smile doesn't mean I'm happy,
It's just my way of faking everything and fooling everyone into believing i'm okay when I'm not..

Just going through the motions in this empty life

It's hard to hold back the tears when they're about to fall... ;(

Pop another pill,
smoke some more
have a drink
and cut deeper than ever before

You know deep inside you're wrong and I'm right :D

I can't just sit back and watch yourself destroy yourself.
It's killing me inside and it's literally killing you.

I want this over

"You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someoneelse happy, no matter what most people havebeen taught and accept as true."

Told my best friend what I've been doing , regret it terribly now that she looks at me with such judging eyes......

All they see is the smiles and the laughing part of me, why can't they look a little closer and see my cold and distant eyes that bear so many burdens someone my age shouldn't have. i'm starting to think i need help .... but i dont know how to get it :(