When you're alone...everything changes.

And as I took that final breath... I finally felt alive.

I've never really opened up my heart and loved, but now that I think about it, I'm glad I haven't.

I'm left all alone in this secretive world,
All of the thoughts in my mind are swirled.
I'm out of control spiraling down,
I don't want help so I don't make a sound.

It's dangerous, dark, and deep,
Something I will always keep.
Only one other person knows it; they're dead,
The secret was so awful; they killed themselves instead.

Remember me happy,
Like I always wanted to be.

They'll find me face down on the floor in the fetal position,
Guess I finally found my happy disposition.
I'm not waking up this time,
I'm sorry I left you behind.

The cold air and snow are freezing my blood,
I no longer want to move for fear of feeling again.
I'm terrified that the memories will flood,
I don't want to feel anything except for the pain.

No one looks past the fake smiles to see that she's depressed again... At night, she feels a sting as she runs a blade across her skin...

Just to feel a different kind of pain.. that's why I do what I do.